When I was about 10-11 years old, I was walking home with three girls from school and we were talking about music on the radio that we liked. They discussed the quality of Boyz II Men and other popular acts at the time while I listened. I turned to my 'best friend' at the time and said that I heard a cool song on the radio that I liked. I sang her a few words from the song and she turned to me and said, “That is weird music for weird people. Don't listen to that stuff, it will make you a freak.”
A few weeks later my family moved away from that neighborhood and I started middle school in a new area with new people. I had bought myself three CDs over that summer that included Green Day's Dookie, The Offspring's Smash, and the record that changed my life, Hole's Live Through This.
I sat in my room and screamed out the lyrics with Courtney Love at the top of my lungs. I even learned how to play "Miss World" on the bass and I dreamed of being a blonde on stage in front of people screaming. I wore hand me down fur coats, ripped tights, smeared lipstick and more barrettes than I would like to admit on a daily basis for quite a few years. Courtney Love was my hero.
That same school year I met a girl named Christie Laabs because we had the same pair of black and white Airwalks on the first week of school. She became my best friend and we spent every day listening to music, going to shows and obsessing over bands. I have essentially spent almost 20 years wondering what it would be like to get on stage and pretend I was Courtney Love for a day.
Flash forward to February 1, 2013. At the end of Destroy This Place's set, they asked me to come up and perform with them. The drums kicked in, the guitars blared and I got to scream out the words “And the sky was made of amethyst, and all the stars look just like little fish...", at the top of my lungs, officially making myself the weirdo freak that I always wanted to be.
I share this story and this video with you not because I think I did a great job, in fact this video is embarrassing. I share this with you because I want people to know that you can do anything that you set your mind too. Singing at a show in front of people was a bucket list item that I get to cross off, I cannot thank Destroy This Place enough for asking me to do this with them. I can't thank the audience enough for letting me do this. I want people to know that no matter how big or small your dream is, if you keep wishing, you will get there. You can start a cool website, you can get on stage and sing and you can make your dreams come true. I put on my best baby doll dress, my prettiest fur and I screamed like I had never screamed before.
So without further ado, this is one of the most embarrassing moments of my life and I am so happy to share it with all of you. Thirteen year old, punk rock Sadie, this ones for you.